The Biotch is Beck!

Well Gang, there are new hopes and dreams on the horizon.  So is that where I've been?  Hoping and dreaming my lame ass away the last 9 months?  Incubating?  Negative,  nerds.  I've been striving and going the distance making my life what I want it to be.   But for you that don't know I'll provide a brief history

Aug 2010 - I put my house on the market (epic), contract signed in 3 weeks only to be cancelled 3 weeks later.  Fixing stuff in the house, replacing the bathroom floor after a leaky toilet.  Suffering, stress!  Doing something that's good for me but sucks to do.  Finally it's under contract again in early Dec.  

Oct 2011 - I step away from competing in the Crossfit USA Weightlifting invitational because of all the stress and commitments in my life. I attend the competition as a treat to myself for turning 39. Yay.

Dec 2010 - Holiday season. Aislin (4 yo) gets sick and is misdiagnosed with a strep infection and UTI.  She has a rare disease called Kawasaki Disease and is in the hospital for 2 weeks. 

I'm at the hospital day and night (taking turns with her Dad).  Friends from Pilgrim school step up like heros and make us meals and bring the girls gifts, help me secure an apt by putting their necks on the line (thanks Mark Zlotkowski).  Huge LOVE, capital, is sent my way.   They were very concerned about Aislin - and Indigo and me and covered me in hugs and kisses and rolled up sleeves.  God bless them all, they got me through.  I learned a valuable lesson in receiving love. 

Dec 13ish - My good friend, Zeke, drops dead on his bike cycling to a meeting.  I miss his memorial service because I'm with Ais in the hospital. He'd approve.   I still miss him when I pass his old apt or the spot on the street where he collapsed.  It has weird energy.

Dec 31 - I move for the first time in 13 years.  In the rain.

January 21 - I enroll in Organic Chemistry and Anatomy and Physiology II preparing for enrollment in highly competitive Nursing School.   Like a deer in the headlights

Ais is still on the mend. Her labs are normal in Feb 2011

March 2011 - I break up with Crossfit.  Many reasons.  But a big financial saver and my schedule was not open when the gym was open.  I need a gym that works for me not just take my money.  Especially when it's so expensive.

May 2011 - school's out.  I made it!

May 16 - Begin an intensive interim semester (16 weeks completed in 4 weeks) for Anatomy and Physiology I.  1 hour commute each way at rush hours.  Kids are still in school so I save on the babysitting costs and minimize time away from them. 

May 23, 2011 -- My friend, Ellee, and I swell up with verve and tackle a new strength program head-on.  New gym but our own - self-driven, program with some 70s-big influence .  Heavy, heavy weight, metcon 2x a week. Pull ups. Strict, dead hang.  No swinging. You and the bar.  

The entire time I was working out the details of my divorce including child care, finances and planning for the future of my family.  

Phew, now I can start posting that fluff you all are so happy to read! There have been some fun journeys along the way.  Interesting people and sites.  Heartbreak, betrayal, confusion and outright exhaustion . Overall I feel like I'm coming up to the surface for some air and want you to tune-in for the adventures to come.   I've missed you!